You will never know how much. You are beautiful, kind and grounded. You know exactly who you are and I admire that. You gave me advice which left me in awe. Must have been my lack of life experience and your general know how. Sounded like you had been through what I am going through now. I admired you, and still do and find it a real shame we went our separate ways. Its hard to explain the feeling of missing someone, but ill try. It feels like its hollow and no matter what you do to occupy yourself there’s always a reminder in the silence.
I keep reminding myself, just be thankful that you were able to meet this human being in the first place. I keep telling myself if the friendship was meant to continue it would find a way. But sometimes the emotions are overwhelming and debilitating and all you want to do is sleep and wait for a new day, so you can try and start again. Persistence is key I guess, hope that time heals the wounds and distance makes it easier.
Would it have been better not to have known you at all? Kept ignorant of the existence of human beings like you. I feel like I don’t even know you that well and somehow I know I’ll never get the chance to. Who am I to stop you from living a full and happy life, this is what I tell myself and reality hits but in a good way. We all deserve happiness and I will not be the one to get in the way. I chose to write about you because you made me happy and this page is a reminder of all the beautiful experiences in my life. I am so thankful to have met you.
“They say people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you no matter how far they wander” ~Hope