I’m sure I can make it work. As I get older I am becoming more aware of the value of spending time with your family. It took me a while to get here, and now that I’m here it’s hard to focus on anything else. So maybe writing it down will calm it down for a second. Slipping in and out of thoughts of being able to see the kids off too school every morning and having a chat to the other mums becomes more appealing. I love the thought of being able to take the kids to sport after school so that the weekend is free. Living the dream… my dream, living in envy of all the women who have this opportunity.
I admit I was guilty of having a negative perception of stay at home mums, until I had my own kids, and then it hit.. there is nothing more important than giving them your time when they need it the most. They are still very dependent and in a few years they will know better than you, or think they do. So I’m nervous about not being able to make the most of it now, time is ticking away every so quickly in the background. My trigger for this one was the fact that Massa didn’t want me to go to work this morning and neither did I. I wanted to stay and watch you and your brother eat breakfast, help you do your buttons on your shirt for school, have a chat to you on the way to school about Robin and his disbelief in knee caps.
Alright trying to keep my eye on the end goal, need to figure out a way. Working with my favourite to figure out a way and at the same time trying to avoid turning him into a work 7 days robot so we can live comfortably.
Option 2 is to throw myself in the deep end and hope everything will work out somehow. But fear of financial instability pulls me back, its too big of a risk. There lies the dilemma, so back to the drawing board of ideas. I’d imagine it would’ve been taken for granted in the past being able to spend all that time with the kids. I get it can and will get crazy sometimes but if you balance it well with social + family it would be ideal. I’d imagine it would give you purpose, a reason to get up in the morning. A reason to organise a routine and have fun breaking it once in a while.
So i guess I’m leaving this one as a work in progress, something to come back to once the end goal is achieved.