Head spinning thoughts whirlwind inside as I  continually question who I was,  who I am and who I will become. Take a breath, step outside of myself as a reminder we are all human beings trying to get through this gift we call life.

Appreciating that change is a part of life, I still struggle with accepting I may no longer be the person others perceive me to be (more so how I saw myself). Life has a tendency to keep putting me in the same positions as if to test whether I have learnt any of my lessons. This time things will be different… this time I will handle it differently… not realising how much will power it takes to want to change and question how you have been handling it in the past.

The power to cut myself open and not being able to stop dissecting every single thought, action and subconscious tendency. Every piece has a meaning and a reason why and the only explanation I have is this is the time. The time to change, the time to be a better person (at least start the process of working on it). No longer will I let my anxious get in the way of kindness. I can see the finish line of 2018 approaching and am eager to start the new year as a new born again.

And as I was driving today, skipping through the songs this one came up and seemed to fit right into my momento. It’s these magical experiences that I truly do appreciate. I’m still figuring out how to deal without signs and meant to be’s but this one was just fitting to a T…