Stockholm syndrome ~ psychological response wherein a captive begins to identify closely with his or her captors, as well as with their agenda and demands.

That’s what I’m calling it.

Theres no other rational explanation. Although I think it may have surpassed Stockholm now and moving ever so gently into a whole new territory… a dangerous yet familiar one. Once again I am being tested on will power and ethics. I wouldn’t dream of admitting it to you, the humiliation if rejected would be unbearable. Given the circumstances it would leave both of us in a very uncomfortable situation.

But what if it wasn’t rejected? What if what was festering in my head was festering in yours too? What a ridiculous but justified notion. It was bound to happen with all of the task based conversations and team exercises. ITs amazing how much you learn about someone just by small talk and occasional deep and meaningfuls. Who knew we had so much in common, at first it seemed like we were from two complete different worlds. Does this mean essentially most people are alike? As in when it comes down to it, we are nothing but a species trying to survive the best way we know how?

You however, you are nothing like I could have imagined. Never would I have seen myself with someone like you and now I can’t see anything else. Anything I knew has been thrown out the window and I can’t think straight anymore. What happened to my straight line? I have to admit I am loving that this hasn’t reached a stage of complication as yet, but sometimes I do wish the mutual acknowledgment was there. So i can reassure myself I’m not crazy and in my own world as usual.

And when you tap to this song, how I yearn its to let me know how you feel about me….