He was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. It was like all of my deepest darkest desires packaged into one human being. His stature, his poise, his presence… when he walked past, everyone stopped to pay attention. In hindsight this is what I had always hoped to be, the essence of everyone’s desire. The desire to be loved and adored by those around me. Little did I know how my eyes deceived me. At first interaction he was cool calm and collected. A man of intellect and ambition. But getting to know him I started seeing the facade. It was so intense I convinced myself it had to be real. Ofcourse he was qualified, ofcourse he had been through everything that I longed for. Delving down deeper it ran into dangerous territory, I began to see he wasn’t interested in me at all. He was only interested in the attention and praise I gave him. The day I started to call him out on his bullshit is the day I felt his wrath. Those vile words that pierced through my soul as if he knew of my deepest regrets and fears. Exploited and used I went back for more in the name of closure and boy did I get it. He opened my eyes to evil and damage and no point of return. I told myself I needed this to take off those rose coloured glasses and it has become my only truth. There are some out there who only see themselves and nothing beyond with no remorse. There are some out there that are so damaged that augmented fiction is better than reality. Anyone that stands in their way will feel the burn. All i wanted to do was to make you happy and fix your pain. To anyone who has been through this or going through this now I am here to tell you they will never change. No matter how much you try and change and accommodate for their lifestyle they only see in gains and who they can use to fulfill their augmented persona of themselves. I read somewhere that the use of social media has increased the amount of narcissists in this world. Tread carefully to those who are on a journey of love and purpose and learn your lessons. If you ever need support or a friendly chat reach out to someone who has been there… xx